tout va bien

Aujourd'hui,

je suis de tres bonne humeur, ce la me permet de voir le mexique d'une autre facon :)

donc voila, pour vous montrer a quel pont je suis heureuse, j' ai meme fait un dessin (de bebe, je sais :p)

voyage, voyage....

chose promise, chose due.
Mon periple en avion commence donc a Paris. Aeroport CDG, avec un premier enregistrement de mes bagages jusqu´a chicago (je vais faire, Paris, Francfurt, Chicago, Monterrey).
Je pars le soir et lorsque j´arrive a francfurt a 11 heures, premiere deconvenue : l´hotel m´avait affirmer qu´ils avaient des navettes tout les demi-heures mais en fait, aucune navette a l´horizon. Apres un appel vers l´hotel, on m´informe que j´aurai du la commander, je replique qu´on aurait pu me prevenir puisque j´avais appelee l´hotel deux semaines avant pour avoir des infos sur les navettes.
L´hotel m´envoie donc la navette mais avec les discussions j´arrive a minuit dans ma chambre. Comme je dois repartir a 5h30 le lendemain pour mon avion a 8h00, je n´ai pas beaucoup dormi. Apres quelques 9 heures d´avion sans histoires et des repas mangeables, merci United Airlines (et hop un peu de pub :p) je debarque a chicago.
Les americains sont se que je nommerais des "security freaks". I mean like totally safety nuts. Donc pour rentrer sur le territoire (et je ne fais que du transit), il faut evidemment repondre au question du genre: Voulez vous attenter a la vie du president, Participez vous a des actions terroristes, Etes vous atteint physiquement ou mentalement d´une maladie contagieuse (Vous croyez que la connerie c´est contagieux?)... Enfin tout un tas de questions tres tes instructives.
Apres avoir recupere mes bagages je passe la douane. Aux USA la douane c´est une affaire serieuse: empreinte digital de l´index gauche, puis empreinte digitale de l´index droit (une ca leur suffit pas?), puis photo(Ils ont deja la photo numerique du passeport electronique alors pourquoi ils m´embetent?).
Enfin, j´ai passe la douane, j´ai recupere mes bagages (re merci United de ne pas les avoir perdu pendant le transit a francfurt), maintenant il faut que je fasse l´enregistrement pour Monterrey.
Comment decrire le cafarnaum de l´enregistrement...
Je fais la queue derriere tous les pauvres gens comme moi qui n´ont pas de billet business ou premiere. Il y en a beaucoup. Mais c´est pas tres grave la queue avance vite.
Ce qui est plus grave c´est que les ricains, qui possedent des tapis roulant, ont decide de faire du zele question securite.
Je m´enregistre donc, mais au lieu de laisser mon sac sur le tapis, je le reprend et je vais le poser avec tout les autres au milieu du Hall. Car les ricains ont cree un poste de securite au milieu des files d´attentes d´enregistrement et chaque bagages passe sous nos yeux entre les mains de tout les agents de securite americains. Ils ont des machines enormes, ils palpent les bagages (meme les valises en plastiques, c´est dire...) et se les lancent allegrement.
Nota Bene : ne JAMAIS rien mettre de fragile dans des bagages pour la soute.
Apres quoi, ils jettent les bagages sur le tapis roulant pour (probablement) un autre check-point securitaire.
Moi je regarde toutes ses procedures avec un air ahuri en degustant mon Mc Do degueu. C´est un aeroport au etats unis alors question qualite culinaire c´est minimaliste.
A l´heure dite je me rend a l´embarquement. Bientot on passera la controle de securite tout nu.
Je dois sortir, l´ordinateur de son sac ordinateur, mon sac de tubes de moins de 100 ml de mon sac a dos ce qui me parait deja idiot mais les nouvelles procedures veulent que l´on enleve aussi: les vestes et les pulls (tous meme s´il fait froid, mais heureusement c´est pas le cas pour cette fois), les ceintures et les chaussures(meme les sandalettes !!!!) . Apres, on voit les business men et women se rhabiller tranquillement. Toute cette debauche securitaire me fait froid dans le dos.
Apres encore quelques heures d´avion j´arrive enfin a Monterrey. Un fonctionnaire de la douane me dit meme "bienvenue au Mexique" ( et pas Pourquoi vous voulez entrer aux USA ? sur un ton menacant). Je recupere mes bagages dans le bordel ambiant (les tapis sont tellement plein que les bagages debordent et tombent en pagailles sur les cotes) et je sors.
Une dame charmante portant un panneau TEC de Monterrey m´aborde avec un "Bienvenido a Monterrey, soy Claudia".
Je suis morte de fatigue mais tres heureuse d´avoir survecu a tous ses aeroports et surtout Heureuse d´etre enfin arrive avec des gens qui semblent ouvert et accueillant et d´autres etudiants aussi paumes que moi. Me voila reconcilie avec la vie et meme peut-etre avec les fonctionnaire americains (enfin ou pas.... j´y reflechirai :p)

mexique me voici

ceci est mon premier post du mexique,
ici, pas de connection a moi alors pour les photos on verra plus tard.
premieres impression: il fait chaud, tres et humide, trop. Environ 35 degre et plein de moustiques qui se font un malin plaisir de me devorer.
Heureusement la plupart dfes batiments ont la clim.
Sinon je vous raconterai plus tard mon periple pour l´avion, pour l´instant je n´ai que peu de temps pour le blog car il faut que je me trouve une chambre.
Tout le monde dit que ce n´est pas trop dur, effectivement on voit des annonces presque partout, malheureusement c´est souvent des endroits peu attirants.
Donc pour l´instant je suis en recherche et sous le soleil mexicain et ben cé st pire que de courir le marathon. On m´a dit qu´on se faisait a tout, a mon humble avis ca peut prendre plus ou moins de temps et pour l´instant c´est plutot parti pour prendre looooooongtemps.
Mais bon, je suis en vie, j´ai pas perdu mes bagages dans l´aeroport et je n´ai pas encore attrape la tourista...de quoi se pliant le peuple :p.

Partir

demain, c'est le grand départ.
Je ne suis pas prête, je crois que je ne le serai jamais. Il faut encore que je fasse mon sac pour l'avion (celui que je vais gardé en cabine).
Evidemment il faut aussi que je garde à l'esprit que comme il y a peu de chance que mes bagages arrivent en meme temps que moi, il serait plus sage d'avoir des rechanges dans mon sac cabine. Ainsi qu'une trousse de toilette, un livre pour ne pas m'ennuyer, des photos pour avoir pres de moi les gens que j'aiment, les papiers importants genre reservation d'hotels, visa, billets retours,...et tout une foultitude d'objets tous plus indispensable et plus emcombrants les uns que les autres.

Je ne veut plus partir. Deja, partir en prépa, puis en école m'avait paru (toujours à partir de deux semaines avant le départ) une épreuve. Là, c'est pire. Pourtant si j'ai demandé le mexique en février c'etait pour y aller non?
Question que je me pose aujourd'hui : comment ai-je jamais pu vouloir quitté mon cocon, mon chez moi, mon pays, ma famille ou mes amis?
Deuxieme question que je me pose aujourd'hui : pourquoi est-ce toujours au moment de partir que ne n'en ai plus envie? Sachant qu'il ne m'ait pas arrivé une seule fois de regretter d'être partie vers une destination inconnue.
Dés que je serais dans l'avion, tout ira mieux. Les questions s'envoleront avec le décollage et ma tête sera remplie de projet d'avenir, vivement demain. Ce qui ne m'empeche pas de freiner des deux pieds ce soir et de trainer devant l'ordi au lieu de faire mes valises.
J'y vais courage :p.

Dessins

Voila quelques dessins en vrac, le fruit de mes efforts en corse. Je sais ça manque d'un beau dessin de paysage style carte postale pour illustrer l'ile de beauté mais le dessin réaliste et moi, ça fait deux. Au minimum.

Stopping by woods on a snowy evening

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house in the village, though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bell a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound’s the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark, and deep,
But I have a promise to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

by Robert Frost

Spring

Nothing is so beautiful as Spring-
When weeds, in wheels, shoot long and lovely and lush;
Thrush’s eggs look little low heavens, and thrush
Through the echoing timber does so rinse and wring

The ear, it strikes like lightnings to hear him sing;
The glassy peartree leaves and blooms, they brush
The descending blue; that blue is all in a rush
With richness; the racing lambs too have fair their fling.

What is all this juice and all this joy?
A strain of the earth’s sweet being in the beginning
In eden garden.-Have, get before it cloy,

Before it cloud, Christ, lord and sour with sinning,
Innocent mind and Mayday in girl and boy,
Most, O maid’s child, thy choice and worthy the winning.

by Hopkins

Sonnet 116

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments, love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove.
O no, it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempest and is never shaken;
It is a star to every wand’ring bark,
Whose worth is unknown, althought his height be taken,
Love’s not times fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle’s compass come,
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom:
If this be error upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

by William Shakespeare

Pied beauty

Glory be to God for dappled things-
For skies of couple-colour as a brinded cow;
For rose-moles all in stipple upon trout that swim;
Fresh-firecoal chestnut-falls; finches’wings;
Landscape plotted and pieced – fold, fallow, and plough;
And all trades, their gear and tackle and trim.

All things counter, original, spare, strange;
Whatever is fickle, freckled (who knows how?)
With swift, slow; sweet, sour; adazzle, dim;
He fathers-forth whose beauty is past change:
Praise him.

by Hopkins

‘No worst’

No worst, there is none. Pitched past pitch of grief,
More pangs will, schooled at forepangs, wilder wring.
Comforter, where, where is your comforting?
Mary, mother of us, where is your relief?
My cries heave, herds-long; huddle in a main, a chief-
Woe, world-sorrow; on an age-old anvil wince and sin-
Then lull, then leave off. Fury had shrieked ‘No ling-
Ering! Let me be fell: force I must be brief.’
O the mind, mind has mountains; cliffs of fall
Frightful, sheer, no-man-fathomed. Hold them cheap
May who ne’er hung there. Nor does long our small
Durance deal with that steep or deep. Here! Creep,
Wretch, under a comfort serves in a whirlwind: all
Life death does end and each day dies with sleep.

by Hopkins

Mushrooms

Overnight, very
Whitely, discretely,
Very quietly

Our toes, our noses
Take hold on the loam,
Acquire the air.

Nobody sees us,
Stops us, betrays us;
The small grains make room.

Soft fists insist on
Heaving the needles,
The leafy bedding.

Even the paving.
Our hammers, our rams,
Earless and Eyeless,

Perfectly voiceless,
Widen the crannies,
Shoulder through holes. We

Diet on water,
On crumbs of shadow,
Bland-mannered, asking

Little or nothing.
So many of us!
So many of us!

We are shelves, we are
Tables, we are meek,
We are edible,

Nudgers and shovers
In spite of ourselves.
Our kind multiplies:

We shall by morning
Inherit the earth.
Our foot’s in the door.

by silvia plath

Lyke-wake dirge

This a nighte, this a nighte,
Every nighte and alle,
Fire and fleet and candle-lighte,
And christe receive thy saule.

When thou from hence away at past,
Every nighte and alle,
To whinny-muir thou com’st at last;
And christe receive thy saule.

If ever thou gavest hosen and soon,
Every nighte and alle,
Sit thee down and put them on;
And christe receive thy saule.

If hosen and shoon tho ne’er gav’st nane
Every nighte and alle,
The whinnes shall prock thee to the bare bane;
And christe receive thy saule.

From whinny-Muir when thou art past,
Every nighte and alle,
To purgatory fire thou com’st at last;
And christe receive thy saule.

If ever thou gavest meat and drink,
Every nighte and alle,
The fire shall never make thee shrink;
And christe receive thy saule.

If meat and drink thou ne’er gav’st nane,
Every nighte and alle,
The fire shall burn thee to the bare bane
And christe receive thy saule.

This a nighte, this a nighte,
Every nighte and alle,
Fire and fleet and candle-lighte,
And christe receive thy saule.

by Anonymous

Little boy crying

Your mouth contorting in brief spite and
Hurt, your laughter metamorphosed into howls,
Your frame so recently relaxed now tight
With three-year-old frustration, you bright eyes
Swimming tears, splashing your bare feet,
You stand there angling for a moment’s hint
Of guilt or sorrow for the quick slap struck.

The ogre towers above you, that grim giant,
Empty of feeling, a colossal cruel,
Soon victim of the tale’s conclusion, dead
At last. You hate him, you imagine
Chopping clean the tree he’s scrambling down
Or plotting deeper pits to trap him in.

You cannot understand, not yet,
The hurt your easy tears can scald him with,
Nor guess the wavering hidden behind the mask.
This fierce man longs to lift you, curb your sadness
With piggy-back or bull-fight, anything,
But dare not ruin the lessons you should learn.

You must not make a plaything of the rain.

by Mervyn Morris

Inversnaid

This darksome burn, horseback brown,
His rollrock highroad roaring down,
In coop and in comb the fleece of his foam
Flutes and low to the lake falls home.

A windpuff-bonnet of fawn-froth
Turns and twindles over the broth
Of a pool so pitchblack, fell-frowning,
It rounds and rounds Despair to drowning.

Degged with dew, dappled with dew
Are the groins of the braes that the brook threads through,
Wiry heathpacks, flitches of fern,
And the beadbonny ash that sits over the burn.

What would the world be, once bereft
Of wet and of wildness? Let them be left,
O let them be left, wildness and wet;
Long live the weeds and the wilderness yet.

by Hopkins

I am the only being whose doom

I am the only being whose doom
No tongue would ask, no eye would mourn;
I never caused a thought of gloom,
A smile of joy, since I was born.

In secrete pleasure, secret tears,
This changeful life has slipped away,
As friendless after eighteen years,
As lone as on my natal day.

There have been times I cannot hide,
There have been times when this was drear,
When my sad soul forgot its pride
And longed for one to love me here.

But those where in the early glow
Of feelings since subdued by care,
And they have died so long ago
I hardly now believe they were.

First melted off the hope of youth,
Then fancy’s rainbow fast withdrew,
And then experience told me truth
In mortal bosom never grew.

‘Twas grief enough to think mankind
All hollow, servile, insincere –
But worse to trust to my own mind
And find the same corruption there.

by Emily Bronte

Horses

Those lumbering horses in the steady plough,
On the bare field-I wonder why, just now,
They seemed terrible, so wild and strange,
Like magic power on the stony grange.

Perhaps some childish hour has come again,
When I watched fearful, through the blackening rain,
Their hooves like pistons in an ancient mill
Move up and down, yet seem as standing still.

Their conquering hooves which trod the stubble down
Were ritual that turned the field to brown,
And their great hulks were seraphim of gold,
Or mute estatic monsters on the mould.

And oh the rapture, when, one furrow done,
They marched broad-breasted to the sinking sun!
The light flowed off their bossy sides in flakes;
The furrows rolled behind like struggling snakes.

But when at dusk with steaming nostrils home
They came, they seemed gigantic in the gloam,
And warm and glowing with mysterious fire
That lit their smouldering bodies in the mire.

Their eyes as brilliant and as wide as night
Gleamed with a cruel apocalyptic light.
Their manes the leaping ire of the wind
Lifted with rage invisible and blind.

Ah, now it fades! And I must pine
Again for that dread country crystalline,
Where the blank field and still-standing tree
Were bright and fearful presences to me.

by Edwin Muir

Felix Randal

Felix Randal the farrier, O is he dead then? My duty all ended,
Who have watched his mould of man, big-boned and
Hardy-handsome
Pining, pining, till time when reason rambled in it and some
Fatal four disorders, fleshed there, all contented?

Sickness broke him. Impatient, he cursed at first, but mended
Being anointed and all; though a heavenlier heart began some
Months earlier, since I had our sweet reprieve and ransom
Tendered to him. Ah well, God rest him all road ever he
Offended!

This seeing the sick endears them to us, us too it endears.
My tongue has taught thee comfort, touch had quenched the
Tears,
Thy tears that touched my heart, child, Felix, poor Felix
Randal;

How far from then forethought of, all thy more boisterous
Years,
When thou at the random grim forge, powerful amids peers,
Didst fettle for the great grey drayhorse his bright and battering
Sandal!

by Hopkins

‘As kingfishers catch fire’

As kingfishers catch fire, dragonflies draw flames;
As tumbled over rim in roundly wells
Stones ring; like each tucked string tells, each hung bell’s
Bow swung finds tongue to fling out its name;
Each mortal thing does one thing and the same:
Deals out that bein indoors each one dwells;
Selves-goes its self; myself it speaks and spells,
Crying What I do is me: for that I came.

I say more: the just man justices;
Keeps grace: that keeps all his goings graces:
Acts in God’s eye what in God’s eye he is-
Christ. For Christ plays in ten thousand places,
Lovely in limbs, and lovely in eyes not his
To the Father through the features of men’s faces.

by Hopkins

A poison tree

I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And I water’d it in fears,
Night & Morning with my tears;
And I sunned it with smiles,
And with soft deceitful wiles.

And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore en apple bright;
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine,

And into my garden stole
When the night had veil’d the pole:
In the morning glad I see
My foe outstretch’d beneath the tree.

by William Blake

A glass of beer

The lanky hank of a she in the inn over there
Nearly killed me for asking for asking the loan of a glass of beer;
May the devil grip the whey-faced slut by the hair,
And beat bad manners out of her skin for a year.

That parboiled ape, with the toughest jaw you will see
On virtue’s path, and a voice that would rasp thee dead,
Came roaring and raging the minute she looked at me,
And threw me out og the house on the back of my head!

If I asked her master he’d give me a cask a day;
But she, with the beer at hand, not a gill would arrange!
May she marry a ghost and bear him a kitten, and may
The high king of Glory permit her to get the mange.

by James stephens

5 ways to kill a man

There are many cumbersome ways to kill a man:
You can make himcarry a plank of wood
To the top a hill and nail him to it. To do this
Properly you require a crowd of people
Wearing sandals, a cock that crows, a cloak
To dissect, a sponge, some vinegar and one
Man to hammerthe nails home.

Or you can shape a length of steel,
Shaped and chased in a traditional way,
And attempt to pierce the metal cage he wears.
But for this you need white horses,
English trees, men with bows and arrows,
At least two flags, a prince and a
Castle to hold your banquet in.

Dispensing with nobility, you may, if the wind
Allows, blow gas at him. But then you need
A mile of mud sliced through with ditches,
Not to mention black boots, bomb craters,
More mud, a plague of rats, a dozen songs
And some rounds hats made of steel.

In an age of aeroplanes, you may fly
Miles above your victim and dispose of him by
Pressing one small switch. All you then
Require is an ocean to separate you, two
Systems of government, a nation’s scientists,
Several factories, a psychopath and
Land that no one needs for several years.

These are, as I began, cumbersome ways
To kill a man. Simpler, direct and much more neat
Is to see that he is living somewhere in the middle
of the twentieth century, and leave him there.

by edwin Brock